Last Night

This is it, the last night before Logan is born.  I am sooo not ready but surprisingly numb.  I had a few little breakdowns thru the day but otherwise just been busy getting ready. 

Another sad thing that is going on is that while I am in the hospital someone is coming to take two of our chihuahua’s away.  Jake and Amy.  Jake is paralyzed and has no control of his bladder and bowels.  He requires a lot of maintenance.  He has to have is bladder expressed for urine 4-5 times a day, he stays locked up a lot of the day because he cannot control his bowels and with babies and toddlers around we cannot be cleaning up after him.  Ethan has already gotten to Jake’s accidents before I could twice.  With a baby that has no way to fight out infections on his own we have just decided that it would be in the best interest of our family to find him a better home.  Luckily, because he is soooo cute and loveable we actually had offers right away.  The nurses at our Veterinary hospital all have fallen in love with him and there is a women there who is thrilled to take him.  She is a vet nurse so she is very capable of taking care of Jake and will have access to great medical care.  Jake has also been with Amy from birth and just cannot see splitting them up.  They snuggle all day and all night and it just wouldn’t be right for him to be without her. So we are also going thru the loose of two of our pets right now, which is not easy (especially for a hormonal pregnant women) but we know it’s the right thing to do.  Because I cannot emotionally handle saying goodbye to Jake and Amy (mainly Jake) they are going to go while I am in the hospital.   So this is also my last night with Jake and Amy. 

I think I will be needing a glass of wine tonight to go to sleep.

3 thoughts on “Last Night”

  1. Hi! I followed you over from Baby Center! I just wanted to let you know that I will praying for a safe delivery of your little Logan. I have a three year old CHD survivor also named Logan. He was born with D-TGA, DORV, VSD, Pulmonary Stenosis and a Right Aortic Arch. We didn’t learn of his diagnosis until he was two weeks old and in heart failure. He has endured three open heart surgeries since then and faces many more. He is doing amazingly well though and you would never guess looking at him what he has been through.

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  2. Oh that is so hard! I’m so very sorry for what you are going through. That is a triple whammy and I know it hurts.

  3. PLEASE KEEP ME UPDATED. MY BABY JAKE WAS BORN 3 WEEKS AGO MAY 18TH WITH THIS EXACT SAME THING. HE HAS HAD 2 SURGERIES AND IS STILL IN THE HOSPITAL BUT HE IS SLOWLY RECOVERING. YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE IN MY PRAYERS.

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